Yesterday I decided to take 'The Chem Basics' online. I figured that it was a smart move, considering the fact that I failed the second semester of bio [read post below for more info] and have signed myself up for Chemistry Advanced. Okay, so I must agree that the second part-- scratch that, nothing in the sentence before hand made me sound intelligent in anyway, but that's the point! I'm taking a step forward and doing classes online in order to have a foot ahead of the game. I'm going to be prepared! Generally, "I'm the type to just settle for 'mediocre', figuring that my good enough, is indeed best." [An accurate description of me, as said by my seventh grade Texas history teacher.] So this is something major. And, if you didn't know... I'm patting myself on the back at the moment.
Anyway, if this post didn't make any since to you, that's because it' ten in the morning [I know it's not that early, but I'm just a plain dead beat till eleven.] and, my head is being jam packed with chemistry. ;( And, as proud as I am of myself [Yes, very big headed], I still doubt that I will ever appreciate the whole science factor. Hah, as a matter of fact, I've always wondered how people came up with this junk. Like who said, 'Hey! That's pretty, I wish I could keep it forever!' and then decided to invent a camera? Hell, the word picture didn't even exist then... how do people do it? Cells, Microorganisms, Plasmas and atoms? The take 'too much freetime' to a whole nother level. Eugh. I'm not making any sense.
I'm off to eat breakfast. Sorry about the confusing post. ^^
{Oh, and I'm looking for people willing to do the movie site with me.}
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
Well... I'll be...
So… I’ve come to the conclusion that my grandfather hates me?
Great way to start out a blog, eh? And, now I bet that you’re wondering why. Not, why I started the blog out this way but why my grandfather hates me, right? Hah, well I want to know too, so get a number. No, seriously now he just gives off that vibe. It’s clear to tell when someone doesn’t like you. Well for me it is at least. Whether it’s the way there expression changes when their eyes reach you or the way that they answer your questions… as if they’re being forced to reply. Ack. I’ve only been wrong about this kind of thing once and the reason; ‘Her eyes just look that way.’
Anyway, at the house it’s only me, my cousin, Joshua, my grandma and my grandpa. Every time the old man says something, it’s either directed to grandma or Josh. Whenever something goes wrong, guess whose name he calls. Bing, you are correct! Rayzha. So… I’m going to look into this. Maybe he thinks that I’m a failure because of the whole 64 in the last semester of biology. And you know, people don’t really like failures. And then, maybe his ‘eyes just look that way’. But, I’m pretty sure that this isn’t just my imagination running wild with me.
Besides that, things are pretty much the same as they were yesterday. I’m wasting my day away sitting in this very chair that I’m sitting in now. I watch the O.C at both one and five o’clock and go to bed at like twelve. Meal times are various and in the morning, I wake-up brush and repeat. God. It’s a shame that THAT’S all that I do. Seriously. Yes and that is my sob story for the day. xD
Oh, and I’ve also decided to start a new blog just for a short story that I want to work on. It’s going to be about vampires. ;o. Yeah, I seriously don’t know anything about vampires but I love writing about them. Which adds on to how and why I adore role-playing them. Speaking of which, I started a new role-play site. And no, I won’t give you the link. Why? Because I feel that it sucks. It’s the worst site I’ve ever created. Believe me, I mean come on now; this is coming from the girl who created ‘the writers club’ at the age of like ten. Okay so I’m exaggerating, I was twelve and I had just learned the basics of html. xD Want the link? http://www.freewebs.com/theywc/ Yes, it’s sad but I was just barely getting used to the whole internet thing and now a days… Eh. Just trust me.
God! The music is killing me. On the site that is. It’s all... erugh! For the record, I’m pulling my hair out right now.
-Rayzha.
Great way to start out a blog, eh? And, now I bet that you’re wondering why. Not, why I started the blog out this way but why my grandfather hates me, right? Hah, well I want to know too, so get a number. No, seriously now he just gives off that vibe. It’s clear to tell when someone doesn’t like you. Well for me it is at least. Whether it’s the way there expression changes when their eyes reach you or the way that they answer your questions… as if they’re being forced to reply. Ack. I’ve only been wrong about this kind of thing once and the reason; ‘Her eyes just look that way.’
Anyway, at the house it’s only me, my cousin, Joshua, my grandma and my grandpa. Every time the old man says something, it’s either directed to grandma or Josh. Whenever something goes wrong, guess whose name he calls. Bing, you are correct! Rayzha. So… I’m going to look into this. Maybe he thinks that I’m a failure because of the whole 64 in the last semester of biology. And you know, people don’t really like failures. And then, maybe his ‘eyes just look that way’. But, I’m pretty sure that this isn’t just my imagination running wild with me.
Besides that, things are pretty much the same as they were yesterday. I’m wasting my day away sitting in this very chair that I’m sitting in now. I watch the O.C at both one and five o’clock and go to bed at like twelve. Meal times are various and in the morning, I wake-up brush and repeat. God. It’s a shame that THAT’S all that I do. Seriously. Yes and that is my sob story for the day. xD
Oh, and I’ve also decided to start a new blog just for a short story that I want to work on. It’s going to be about vampires. ;o. Yeah, I seriously don’t know anything about vampires but I love writing about them. Which adds on to how and why I adore role-playing them. Speaking of which, I started a new role-play site. And no, I won’t give you the link. Why? Because I feel that it sucks. It’s the worst site I’ve ever created. Believe me, I mean come on now; this is coming from the girl who created ‘the writers club’ at the age of like ten. Okay so I’m exaggerating, I was twelve and I had just learned the basics of html. xD Want the link? http://www.freewebs.com/theywc/ Yes, it’s sad but I was just barely getting used to the whole internet thing and now a days… Eh. Just trust me.
God! The music is killing me. On the site that is. It’s all... erugh! For the record, I’m pulling my hair out right now.
-Rayzha.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
But, what happens after that?
When I was younger, I had an extreme fascination or shall I say fear, of death. I mean sure, I'm still afraid of dying, but the age of ten and eleven it was just nerve racking. I'd lie awake in my bed all night, eyes wide open and mind wondering. You see, it wasn't the whole 'being dead factor' that was scaring me. It was the fact that I didn't know how it... worked. I had so many questions and no one had answers.
Wow, it all sounds so silly now but at that point in my life, it was just horrifying. Little Rayzha couldn't handle or get over the fact that once you were gone... you were gone. Seriously... gone; off spending the rest of eternity six feet under. If I could, I would relay the old questions to you, verbatim. But to tell you the truth, I really can't. And, I'm sure that it's not because I forgot. I'm thinking that maybe... just maybe they've been stored under lock and key inside of my head somewhere. As if my brain was trying to rid me of the confusion and worry. Like under serious lock and key as to make sure that I don't relive that phase. Well, not until I was ready to handle such a thing. I can tell you now; the whole death thing went on for like a year and a half. It was dark... extremely freaky and well... I never found those answers that I longed for.
Actually, I can think of some of those questions: What happens next? I mean in all seriousness what happens when I'm dead? Is it like staring at a black wall? What about my whole thought process; will I actually realize that I'm dead? Would people remember me? After twenty years buried, would they still care? It was just little stuff like that. And then, each question would branch out to another until soon enough I was just overwhelmed. When it got to that point, I was crying myself to sleep every night just because I still DIDNT HAVE ANSWERS! I'm the type of person who has to have background information on what I'll be forced to go through. I've always had and probably always will hate being in the dark on something. And then the fact that I was to actually one day, DIE, as in fail to exist was well... killing me.
I know, I know. As you read this, it might not sound as intense as it was for me at that point. As a matter of fact, I don't even know why I chose to blog about this today. The topic just seemed to pop into my mind. Hah, so much for the lock and key idea.
Wow, it all sounds so silly now but at that point in my life, it was just horrifying. Little Rayzha couldn't handle or get over the fact that once you were gone... you were gone. Seriously... gone; off spending the rest of eternity six feet under. If I could, I would relay the old questions to you, verbatim. But to tell you the truth, I really can't. And, I'm sure that it's not because I forgot. I'm thinking that maybe... just maybe they've been stored under lock and key inside of my head somewhere. As if my brain was trying to rid me of the confusion and worry. Like under serious lock and key as to make sure that I don't relive that phase. Well, not until I was ready to handle such a thing. I can tell you now; the whole death thing went on for like a year and a half. It was dark... extremely freaky and well... I never found those answers that I longed for.
Actually, I can think of some of those questions: What happens next? I mean in all seriousness what happens when I'm dead? Is it like staring at a black wall? What about my whole thought process; will I actually realize that I'm dead? Would people remember me? After twenty years buried, would they still care? It was just little stuff like that. And then, each question would branch out to another until soon enough I was just overwhelmed. When it got to that point, I was crying myself to sleep every night just because I still DIDNT HAVE ANSWERS! I'm the type of person who has to have background information on what I'll be forced to go through. I've always had and probably always will hate being in the dark on something. And then the fact that I was to actually one day, DIE, as in fail to exist was well... killing me.
I know, I know. As you read this, it might not sound as intense as it was for me at that point. As a matter of fact, I don't even know why I chose to blog about this today. The topic just seemed to pop into my mind. Hah, so much for the lock and key idea.
Monday, June 25, 2007
It's raining.
Oddly enough, the rain makes me feel good. Don’t get me wrong now, I’m a huge fan of great weather and everything but when it rains, it just makes the sunshine something to look forward to, you know? For example let’s look at it like this: No matter how dark the sky gets, or how hard the thunder/lightening clashes, the sun will come out. It may not be tomorrow as Anne suggested, or the next day or the day after that. But, the sun WILL come out, and that’s good enough for me. So it symbolizes that no matter how bad off life may become for you, sooner or later things will get better. That’s why I like the rain. That’s why it makes me smile, silly init?
Generally, I’m a pessimist. But it’s something about the rain…
I went to a John Mayer concert for Josh’s birthday. It was literally on his birthday. He’s thirteen now, and thinks that he’s ‘big pimpin’. Those are my words, not his. The concert was amazing. I'm pretty sure that I had more fun than the boy did. Just imagine yourself laying back in the grass [we had lawn seats] and taking in the fresh air as the John Mayer's voice fills your ears. The whole grass and fresh air thing is seriously saying alot, considering I'm a 'recluse' as Mahoganey [the best friend] puts it. Seriously it was just fantastic. I’d never really realized how much of a Mayer fan I was until he broke out with, ‘No Such Thing’. Everyone knows that one. ‘I want to run through the halls of the high school. I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I just found out that there’s no such thing as a real world…’ Yeah, it goes like that for the most part. xD So, I’m fifteen and this was my first concert. Tell me; Do the performers always sound better than they do on CD, or was that just a onetime thing?
Oh, yes. I’m back again. For those of you who’ve actually read my previous blogs, you know that I’ve been locked up at my grandparent’s house for about a month now. Anywho, they [my parents] came to get me for the WEEKEND, and well… I’m back. And not to mention heartbroken. Not once did anyone mention coming back, I went into a short rage. A tamper, if you will. I mean, I love my grandparents as much as the next person, maybe even more… but I want to spend my summer with friends. Go to parties, sleepovers. Damn it, even CHURCH.
{sigh} Whoa is me? I shall take a moment to wallow in my self pity. ;[ It’s almost seven in the morning and I haven’t slept a wink. This is as sad as it gets.
Generally, I’m a pessimist. But it’s something about the rain…
I went to a John Mayer concert for Josh’s birthday. It was literally on his birthday. He’s thirteen now, and thinks that he’s ‘big pimpin’. Those are my words, not his. The concert was amazing. I'm pretty sure that I had more fun than the boy did. Just imagine yourself laying back in the grass [we had lawn seats] and taking in the fresh air as the John Mayer's voice fills your ears. The whole grass and fresh air thing is seriously saying alot, considering I'm a 'recluse' as Mahoganey [the best friend] puts it. Seriously it was just fantastic. I’d never really realized how much of a Mayer fan I was until he broke out with, ‘No Such Thing’. Everyone knows that one. ‘I want to run through the halls of the high school. I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I just found out that there’s no such thing as a real world…’ Yeah, it goes like that for the most part. xD So, I’m fifteen and this was my first concert. Tell me; Do the performers always sound better than they do on CD, or was that just a onetime thing?
Oh, yes. I’m back again. For those of you who’ve actually read my previous blogs, you know that I’ve been locked up at my grandparent’s house for about a month now. Anywho, they [my parents] came to get me for the WEEKEND, and well… I’m back. And not to mention heartbroken. Not once did anyone mention coming back, I went into a short rage. A tamper, if you will. I mean, I love my grandparents as much as the next person, maybe even more… but I want to spend my summer with friends. Go to parties, sleepovers. Damn it, even CHURCH.
{sigh} Whoa is me? I shall take a moment to wallow in my self pity. ;[ It’s almost seven in the morning and I haven’t slept a wink. This is as sad as it gets.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Ho hum..
Well, I’m absolutely brilliant. Hah, I started a new blog especially for movie review, comments and such. I tend to watch stuff on amc and tcm on the regular basis, so I figured why not start a blog about it? I was originally just going to post the movie info on this blog, but I decided to keep this one just for my life... you know?
Anyway, I’m going to add the link to the sidebar, but here’s the URL just in case I get sidetracked while doing so. http://razmoviemania.blogspot.com/. The first movie review is about the 1966 edition of Batman, staring Adam West and Burt Ward.
That’s all I have to say at the moment. I may add more later. ^^
Anyway, I’m going to add the link to the sidebar, but here’s the URL just in case I get sidetracked while doing so. http://razmoviemania.blogspot.com/. The first movie review is about the 1966 edition of Batman, staring Adam West and Burt Ward.
That’s all I have to say at the moment. I may add more later. ^^
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Homebound.
I’m back to blogger again. Live journal pissed me off, so I found that it was best to go ahead and leave before I caused my computer monitor anymore trauma. [In case you didn’t know, I tend to take a whack at the screen when ever agitated.] So anyway, the best from below was the last one I posted on my LJ. For the record, I got around to doing a little coding… but then my computer crashed. And, it continued to crash every time that I logged onto Live Journal. Therefore.. I quit. But get this; I’m not a quitter.
Hah, enough with that little mini rant. I think that I’m going to put up a mini mp3 player on my sidebar before the night is over. Speaking of which, I really should get to cleaning since my mom is coming to pick me up in the morning. I mean, FINALLY! She dropped me off here, at my grandparent’s house, like three weeks ago claiming that I’d be back home in a few days. Let me just say this: Beaumont, Texas isn’t necessarily the most entertaining place in the world.
I spent majority of my day searching the web for Donnie Darko. I’m too cheap and too young, to purchase the rated ‘r’ movie and I wanted my little cousin, Josh, to see it. Unfortunately, almost every god damned link on the World Wide Web, for the movie is broken. I’m being completely serious here. I know over one hundred great movie sites and either they didn’t have the movie in the first place, or the link was broken. I smell a conspiracy. I ended up watching the Fantastic Four Number Dos and Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
I recently joined Gravity Message Board. It’s a great site. I think I want my own. It’s weird the way that, works for me. I can’t even put it into words. So just ignore this segment.
Right now, I’m like in love with Paramore. It truly is a great band. If you haven’t heard of them, I’ll have a song by the group on my player for you in no time. Or you could check out their purevolume. Another great site for you to discover and download would have to be dizzler. Imeem pissed me off with their thirty second samples; therefore, I will no longer refer others to them.
Well, I’m off to clean so that everything will be ready in the morning. I might add more later. ^^
Hah, enough with that little mini rant. I think that I’m going to put up a mini mp3 player on my sidebar before the night is over. Speaking of which, I really should get to cleaning since my mom is coming to pick me up in the morning. I mean, FINALLY! She dropped me off here, at my grandparent’s house, like three weeks ago claiming that I’d be back home in a few days. Let me just say this: Beaumont, Texas isn’t necessarily the most entertaining place in the world.
I spent majority of my day searching the web for Donnie Darko. I’m too cheap and too young, to purchase the rated ‘r’ movie and I wanted my little cousin, Josh, to see it. Unfortunately, almost every god damned link on the World Wide Web, for the movie is broken. I’m being completely serious here. I know over one hundred great movie sites and either they didn’t have the movie in the first place, or the link was broken. I smell a conspiracy. I ended up watching the Fantastic Four Number Dos and Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
I recently joined Gravity Message Board. It’s a great site. I think I want my own. It’s weird the way that, works for me. I can’t even put it into words. So just ignore this segment.
Right now, I’m like in love with Paramore. It truly is a great band. If you haven’t heard of them, I’ll have a song by the group on my player for you in no time. Or you could check out their purevolume. Another great site for you to discover and download would have to be dizzler. Imeem pissed me off with their thirty second samples; therefore, I will no longer refer others to them.
Well, I’m off to clean so that everything will be ready in the morning. I might add more later. ^^
Guess who's back.
Wow. It's been a while since I last posted on here, and really there's no explanation for it. I mean, I've been locked up at my grandparent's house for the past three weeks with nothing but a computer and a direct tv cable box. And, as you could have guessed, I've been on the computer for at least eighteen hours a day. The rest of the time I'm either sleeping or eating. You'd think that with the summer here and teenagers/children out of school, that cable companies would actually play worthwile programs. Hah, well that's what I thought would happen anyway.
So, after three weeks, I've successfully joined about one hundred online communities including; imvu, maplestory, habbohotel, secondlife, and goonzu. I've also downloaded paint shop pro, and tried my hand at making graphics. Obviously, that hand is retarded. Actually, I made two decent graphics. Here's one and here is the other. Uhm. I've also created two new role-play sites and worked on my characters a bit. Basically, that's all I've done with my life. Ohh, and I've also started working out on the daily basis. [Commercial breaks during the O.C.]
The only thing I watch on tv, is the O.C at one and five on soapnet. And of course, almost everything on adult swim. I asked this one kid on imvu if he watch adult swim, and he said; "Nah, I hate it. It makes fun of all the stuff that I like,". Originally, I was going to use the question as a conversation starter but after that I answer, I was sort of like; "Well than... this is sort of awkward..."
Hah, good times.
Anyway, I feel like coding. So, I'm going to try my hand at creating a layout for my journal. Wish me luck. ^^I would leave you guys out with a song, but imeem is only giving me thirty second samples today. Sorry, loves.
So, after three weeks, I've successfully joined about one hundred online communities including; imvu, maplestory, habbohotel, secondlife, and goonzu. I've also downloaded paint shop pro, and tried my hand at making graphics. Obviously, that hand is retarded. Actually, I made two decent graphics. Here's one and here is the other. Uhm. I've also created two new role-play sites and worked on my characters a bit. Basically, that's all I've done with my life. Ohh, and I've also started working out on the daily basis. [Commercial breaks during the O.C.]
The only thing I watch on tv, is the O.C at one and five on soapnet. And of course, almost everything on adult swim. I asked this one kid on imvu if he watch adult swim, and he said; "Nah, I hate it. It makes fun of all the stuff that I like,". Originally, I was going to use the question as a conversation starter but after that I answer, I was sort of like; "Well than... this is sort of awkward..."
Hah, good times.
Anyway, I feel like coding. So, I'm going to try my hand at creating a layout for my journal. Wish me luck. ^^I would leave you guys out with a song, but imeem is only giving me thirty second samples today. Sorry, loves.
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